Its like.. 1:30am now.. Everyone is asleep I guess? And yea.. I am still sitting in front of the com blogging haha. =). Fierce huh? I dunno? I just finished reading Pretty Hunter.. Not a bad manga... but only 7 books. Pity. And i just showered. So can't go to sleep with wet hair either. heh.

Actually... I seriously dunno what i shud blog about. But i really felt like blogging... so here it goes.

A routine of my life... Wake up.. Have breakfast.. Play a bit of games... Afternoon meet weilong go chiong silent hill or go somewhere chill... Go home go tapao food. Spam with Weilong and Jingwen until they sleep... and tada. 1 day is gone. Seriously.. What the heck am i doing? lol. I really dunno. It feels nice to be able to relax like this... But this aimless life.. kinda have to stop no? At least.. I had a passion for games when I was young.. Now ... what the hell..?

Touch your heart, close your eyes and ask yourself... What do you really want in life? Then after that... go for it. For some reason... When i do that, I got several responses... which i think... isn't what i really want. So.. For those who have 1 and clearly one... Good for u. Go for it. Feeling of void and emptiness ain't nice. Guess this will be the last time i will blog about this feeling... But if anyone has the answer of what causes that feeling, please tell me. =).

I silently pray that... there is a friend who can follow me through this late night hour... where i can pour my thoughts into him/her... and he/she can respond with his or her thot... No joking. No one word replies. Just in a world of our own, enjoying the philosophical exchange. =). This is the time... when I can't joke. I can't make anyone laugh. The serious me is here, The quiet me, the me.. that not many knew... but I guess its not wanted out there hehe. I pray and hope for that day.. =)

I have decided that.. I will not get angry unnecessarily again. And.. I need more courage.. =). I want to reach the ideal state that I want to be. I hope I can make it. Yup.. small steps to improvement... Slowly... I hope my friends support me too. =)

And... My 21st Birthday Chalet is on... u guys r booked. on a weekend in June... Dun come means dun give face. Lol. Cya there..

----- Thots flowing in the night ----- Maddy