I felt like never before. Used. Thrown. Abandoned. Alone. . . Nothing could describe the feeling that I felt when I saw the message appear on my phone.

And yet again... My hopes went from a blinking flash of light to a complete black hole of darkness. Vacuum. Void. Empty. Was it my fault to hope? I don't know.

Time and again... I was hit with disappointment. I forgived, I forget, I ignored, I tried to understand. But. . . One could see clearly where the priorities were placed. And I definitely wasn't anywhere near important, or maybe even near existence.

My heart... It was damaged, bruised, beaten and now... It has totally died.

I really really wondered why you treat me the way you did. But I guess... There is no way I will know and there is no longer a point to find out.

I need some time alone... and I will pick myself up again.

----- Maddy -----